Hello all.

I will preface this with a TW: domestic violence, child abuse.

I wanted to share this publicly, not to cause a stir or solicit empathy. I was embarrassed, but now I realize that I have no reason to be embarrassed. I did nothing wrong. I loved people who harmed me and that is nothing to be ashamed of. Also, adults should take responsibility for the ways they harm people.

Domestic Violence

Christian Eliezer Terrazas is an abuser. He’s abusive PERIOD, and if you aren’t telling the women he dates that he’s abusive, then you, my (not) friend, are an enabler of his abuse. The only dates he should have is with a therapist. From physical abuse to gaslighting and manipulation, He’s a master at playing games and harming people. He puts on different masks for different folks. If you’re a “church friend” he’ll talk about God, and if you’re a “work friend” he’ll talk about whatever it takes to get your guard down. While he’s a talented artist in many respects, he’s also a master manipulator, the kings of lies and deception, and he enjoys twisting stories and playing the victim. From lying about breaking or hiding things, to saying that he never slapped me, he never drove recklessly. etc etc.

If you choose to be friends with him or worse yet, date him… god have mercy on you. He’s shown for 7 years that he doesn’t want to change or genuinely love people.

Child Molestation

Michael Henry Lewis, born Jan 8, 1953, is from and currently resides in Houston, TX is an abuser. He molested me from age 15-17. He knew full well how old I was because he’d pick me up from school. My mother also told him how old I was before telling him to leave me alone. However, he continued to pursue me. He likes to target black girls for this type of abuse. IDK if he’s changed in the 20 some odd years since, but I doubt it. He keeps looking me up on social networks including LinkedIn. Every time he reaches out or looks me up I remind him that he owes me one hell of an apology because I’m a year younger than his youngest daughter. He’d be molesting me with his daughter asleep across the hall. He took me to sex stores, sex clubs etc etc. Only one of those establishments asked for ID.

He would reach out regularly after I ended our inappropriate interactions to gaslight me and tell me that I was the best girlfriend he ever had. I wasn’t his girlfriend. I was his victim.

Why Now?

I’m setting myself free. I releasing myself from the burden of guilt and embarrassment because I’m not the one who did anything wrong. I didn’t seek out abuse or manipulation. I’m not hiding the harm that others have caused me anymore because secrets enable more and greater abuse. These two aren’t the only men who have abused me or sexually assaulted me. There were people who pressured me for sex, and people who touched me without my consent, and men who continue to call and text and harass even though I’ve made it clear that I’m not interested. So, this is a warning to the rest of you, don’t call, don’t text, don’t reach out. I don’t want to know you.

To all the people who also endured abuse, tell your story. Burn the bridges. Cut the ties and the connections. They don’t deserve an ounce of your empathy or energy, because they didn’t consider you as they were harming you.

And if you were abused and have abused others in return, stop now. Seek help to address the shame and guilt, and turn over a new leaf. 2024 can be a new beginning for all of us.