It was super hard to wake up this morning. I opened my eyes at 5 am and saw the time. I tried to convince myself it was 2 and I closed my eyes for five mins. I battled with myself in my head for those 5 minutes. I knew that I was in fact 5 am. I knew that I had made a commitment to myself to pray and workout every morning before work and I knew just how exhausted I was.

I got up anyway.

I went in our guest room/ office and sat on the futon. I turned on some praise and worship music and started my reading plan for the day. It’s on Youversion and it is called Habit Breaker. I read through as I drifted in and out of sleep. I barely made it through my workout this morning, but when I got to the other side I realized I powered through and helped build a new healthy habit.

Breaking old habits can be very challenging. I still bite my nails in nervous situations. I still let my room get out of control before I feel the need to clean it. I’m a work in progress. But today, I conquered.